My dear friend, you are in my prayers. Do not allow yourself to give up on yourself. that is one of the things to many do... and allow themselves to waste away. My grandfather lived five years after being giving just a few weeks to a month. all because he didn't give up. and you're right, live is short and very precious. I learned it the hard way. If you get to paradise before me... i've already got a spot on the bank of the River of Life. So please don't take it from me. But take the spot right beside it, so we'll be able to talk and compre notes on our loved ones still here on Earth.